You are going through a lot. You are very angry and you feel a lot of emotions and feelings towards women and some woman or a specific group of women. You saying that a woman who lives a lifestyle with love in her life and things that make a relationship is basic is stupid. The women you are talking about aren't boring and basic they got a lot of love and a ton of fun going on in their lives they have funny everyday conversations, goals- so they won't worry too much and be filled with regret. They have plans to do things fun in their lives, but it's the everyday things in life that make life enjoyable that people shouldn't take for granted or not appreciate like being able to enjoy a meal, being able to laugh about something and naturally smile, and more. Walking around everyday holding in anger and pain in your heart is not good even when I experience pain and anger I let my heart be free of that. I'm an oxymoron, a synonym and antonym, you can be experiencing bad things but still find things that make you happy. Love is poison, in where it's attraction is so strong you will feel weak when you find that person that has what you want(the person you are the most attracted to and feel like you like many things about that person-love). Your love is poison is an insult to probably most people in the world. I don't want you. I just wanted you to know your reality is not the reality for most people you should think about if your lifestyle being different from most, not that it makes you better but feel a rage, that your just not happy.